Perhaps an explanation for the title of my Blog....

The search for reason signifies that I no longer know what reason is, and that I no longer possess it. What is supposed to be rational, what is supposed to be reasonable basically has no objective reality nor justification to me anymore. The question as to what is reason or rational has been plaguing me for the past year or more. It has been central to my existence in whatever I do. Functional as I seem, it is just what it seems, nothing more.

The result of not knowing what reason is could result in disastrous and embarassing results, especially in tutorials.
A: " .....no society could develop in that way, it is not rational to do so. "
B: " Could you please kindly qualify your term 'rational'? "
Suddenly, the whole tutorial class is awake.
A: " .... "
C is gesticulating wildly.
C: " ALRIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! "

Of course, for me, this pursuit itself is for purely personal interests, nothing more.